I went up to the full citalopram dose a few weeks or maybe a month ago when I was anticipating interview stress. I’m prescribed 20mg but since I restarted it I stuck to 10 until recently.
I don’t know if I really feel any difference between 10 and 20 in terms of mental health, but it something I really do notice is how tired it makes me. On 10 I don’t really notice it at all, but on 20 I feel like I could go to bed any time after about 7pm.
Over the weekend I had a think about what my goals really are. I decided that I’m fairly comfortable at work right now and I don’t need to move until something changes. When work wants me back in the office I’ll try to negotiate permanent work from home a few days a week and take it from there. But until then I don’t really need to stress myself.
So I decided to drop it back down to 10mg again. I’ve done 15 for the past few days and in a few more days I’ll go to 10. I felt quite irritable and impatient yesterday but better today. Ironically feeling impatient made me want to start job seeking again, but I think that’s just the withdrawal talking.
Rambles 
I’m on 20mg and I’m struggling to get out of bed. I’m hoping it’s just a “settling in” phase that will get easier but I’ve noticed I’m sleeping heavier and my dreams are even more random and vivid.
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I have the vivid dreams as well, I think it’s a common thing with SSRIs.
Is it making you feel any better do you think?
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I’m not sure, I think I’m still early days into adjusting and I go back to work Friday so that’s stressing me out a little.
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I’ve found that it reduces background stress and anxiety a lot, but I still get stressed about specific events.
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I find making decision usually helps me feel better. Sometimes to the point where deciding to phone the doctor or speak to my boss makes me feel better enough that I don’t actually do it lol.
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I’m the same, it feels good to have a plan. It removes the uncertainty. Even if you don’t actually do it!
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