Tired

I had trouble sleeping last night. I don’t know why, I just ended up lying in bed for an hour feeling my heart pounding. I was playing Factorio until 10PM which might not have helped… I used to have a strict “no computer games after 9PM” rule. But Factorio is addictive. Hmmmm…

So I’ve been tired today. The kind of tired that comes from not sleeping well. It’s been a long time since I felt like this. There have been a few issues with my sleep lately that take me back to about a year ago. Just before I started anti-depressants. One night last summer we had a thunderstorm at about midnight that went on for a few hours. I remember sitting on my bed at 2AM with a cup of tea and my guitar on my lap, because I’d pretty much given up on trying to sleep. A week or so ago we had a few nights with thunder around bed time and it reminded me of that night.

I don’t think I really had any problems with sleep after starting anti-depressants. I just slept. Now that I’ve come off them, I definitely miss that…

I can’t even blame last night on work stress because I have a few days off. I was a bit down the last time I wrote about work, and I don’t know if I genuinely feel that way. I don’t think it’s really bothering me at the moment. I think how I feel is that it was the right move at the time, but that doesn’t mean it’s right for me long term. And right now I’m OK with that.