Stopping

My running isn’t going very well at the moment. This is partly because of the virus I had a few weeks ago (COVID?) and partly because of the coaching. The virus sapped my energy levels, which is fine, but I feel, ironically, that the coaching is intefering with rebuilding because there is such a focus on strength work that it’s leaving me with too little energy for running. The outcome is that I seem to be paying to add kilograms to my deadlift, which isn’t that exciting and not something I’d really put a monetary value on, if I’m honest. So I feel like we’ve lost the plot a bit. Last week I felt really down some days, possibly from the virus, possibly from fatigue, and thought about it a lot, and… I’ve mentally checked out from it now. Before my next session I will email her and let her know I won’t be continuing with it past the current month, but to be honest if we could just stop right now I’d be happy. It feels like when you give notice in a job and suddenly it seems completely pointless.

In gaming news… I did get bored of Mad Max after all. I went back to Fallout 4 but I struggled to be interested in that too. It just seems very mediocre. In the end I went with Wolfenstein: The New Order, which I must have got free a long time ago but never played. I had low expectations but they were completely surpassed – this game is great! It has you go from breaking out of a hospital to breaking in and out of a concentration camp to stealing nazi helicopters then stealing a nazi nuclear submarine and then infiltrating a nazi moon base to steal the nuclear warhead encryption keys. All in a day’s work for Captain Blazkowicz. But it’s well written despite being kind of stupid and doesn’t take itself seriously at all. I really liked Frau Engel, the seondary villain.

I enjoyed it so much that I bought a pack of three other Wolfenstein games. I have now started the next one (The New Colossus) and one of the more unusual things is that you can overhear some of the nazi enemies talking about the events of the first game and discussing how they found it traumatic to be hiding from the American lunatic with the laser rifle while he slaughtered their friends and that they still have nightmares from it. Err, sorry 🤷‍♀️

Again…?

I woke up on Monday with a sore throat, and then as soon as I started eating breakfast my stomach announced it was upset too. Three days later and, yep, it’s definitely a virus of some kind. So far it’s not been too bad. My stomach is still a bit iffy but not terrible, and the sore throat has progressed to a bit of a cold but nothing much. Is it COVID? I don’t know, I don’t have any tests. The first time I had COVID it started with an upset stomach a few days before other symptoms appeared and the second time (in January) it started with a sore throat. So… maybe? Not that it makes any difference either way, except that hopefully since I had it relatively recently I’ve still got enough immunity that it won’t be too bad this time.

In computer game news, I finished Shadow of Mordor. I enjoyed it a lot and as it’s a long time since I last played a big budget computer game I was surprised by how polished it was. Maybe that’s just the standard now, but it I felt it was really well made. It also prompted me to start watching Rings of Power (the Amazon Lord of the Rings series), as the stories kind of overlap a little bit. Except that in the game Celebrimbor is a force to be reckoned with, whereas in the TV show he looks like a geography teacher.

I thought I’d have a break from Lord of the Rings before moving onto Shadow of War, the sequel. In the mean time I went with the Mad Max game. The Mad Max game is conceptually quite similar to Shadow Of Mordor (in terms of gameplay mechanics), but I’ve been underwhelmed by it. It feels like they made about 80% of the game really well but didn’t think about the final 20%. The writing is immature. It’s been a very long time since I saw Mad Max, so maybe this is in, but the first person you meet is called “Scrotus” and it doesn’t improve from then onwards. Almost everyone you meet is an angry psychopath who in the kind of lawless reality depicated would have been killed for being a total liability to themselves and everyone around them. Overall, though, the game is very polished but repetitive and not all that fun. Even just playing in short bursts on my Steam Deck I’m feeling bored by it. The driving feels nice, but wandering around on foot is dull.

I might try Subnautica next. People keep telling me that it’s amazing.