Still tired

I have finished with the coaching for now. I sent her the email and she replied saying she was going to recommend the same thing, because I obviously wasn’t recovering well enough to benefit from it. I have never felt that she was out to make money (and probably undervalues her time) so I think it was genuine. I might start it back again when I’m feeling better. At the moment I am running 3x a week with that being split between a 60 minute long run, a 30-40 minute easy run and a 30-40 minute ‘fartlek’ (i.e. impromptu speed bursts as and when I feel like it). I am still feeling really tired. My fartlek this week was Parkrun, which I completed in an underwhelming 27 minutes (in the middle of a 40 minute run overall), and I felt completely exhausted in the afternoon.

The other thing is my knee. It was bothering me a bit a few months ago and seemed to have sorted itself out… until, ironically, I was unwell and really cut back on the running. Basically it seems to be classic runners’ knee, i.e patella femoral pain syndrome (PFPS). PFPS is thought to be caused by the kneecap moving slightly out of alignment with the groove it’s supposed to sit in, which can be caused by the usual suspects (tight muscles, overpronation, lack of hip stability). In my case this means vague aches and tightness around the kneecap. It doesn’t really hurt, it just feels a bit off.

I was going to phone the physio yesterday but I had a few other thoughts over the weekend. Some points in no particular order: 1. My outer hip (glute, maybe IT band, probably TFL too) has been tight and achy lately. 2. I know my lateral quad is tight because I can often feel the tendon clicking just above the knee. 3. I’ve noticed lately when running I often catch my foot on my opposite ankle as my leg swings through. This article about the issue has the classic ‘your glutes are weak’ line, but also says it might be due to poor hip extension causing you to twist to get the range of motion that you need. Now that’s interesting because 4. Since I had the coaching, my stride length has massively increased, which means… I need a lot more hip extension than I used to.

So before I phone the physio I’m going to try seriously fixing things myself this week, which is going to involve a 20-30 minute hip strength session every other day and daily stretching and self massage. I actually had the same thing last summer and it seemed to resolve itself with some more attention to general strength and stretching, so I shouldn’t really need a physio appointment…

Stopping

My running isn’t going very well at the moment. This is partly because of the virus I had a few weeks ago (COVID?) and partly because of the coaching. The virus sapped my energy levels, which is fine, but I feel, ironically, that the coaching is intefering with rebuilding because there is such a focus on strength work that it’s leaving me with too little energy for running. The outcome is that I seem to be paying to add kilograms to my deadlift, which isn’t that exciting and not something I’d really put a monetary value on, if I’m honest. So I feel like we’ve lost the plot a bit. Last week I felt really down some days, possibly from the virus, possibly from fatigue, and thought about it a lot, and… I’ve mentally checked out from it now. Before my next session I will email her and let her know I won’t be continuing with it past the current month, but to be honest if we could just stop right now I’d be happy. It feels like when you give notice in a job and suddenly it seems completely pointless.

In gaming news… I did get bored of Mad Max after all. I went back to Fallout 4 but I struggled to be interested in that too. It just seems very mediocre. In the end I went with Wolfenstein: The New Order, which I must have got free a long time ago but never played. I had low expectations but they were completely surpassed – this game is great! It has you go from breaking out of a hospital to breaking in and out of a concentration camp to stealing nazi helicopters then stealing a nazi nuclear submarine and then infiltrating a nazi moon base to steal the nuclear warhead encryption keys. All in a day’s work for Captain Blazkowicz. But it’s well written despite being kind of stupid and doesn’t take itself seriously at all. I really liked Frau Engel, the seondary villain.

I enjoyed it so much that I bought a pack of three other Wolfenstein games. I have now started the next one (The New Colossus) and one of the more unusual things is that you can overhear some of the nazi enemies talking about the events of the first game and discussing how they found it traumatic to be hiding from the American lunatic with the laser rifle while he slaughtered their friends and that they still have nightmares from it. Err, sorry 🤷‍♀️

Pixel

I bought the Google Pixel 7 after all. It was essentially a choice between that and the Samsung A54. The Pixel was reduced on Prime Day, the A54 wasn’t. I was leaning towards the Pixel anyway as 1) I don’t really like Samsung’s Android UI style that much and 2) The camera comparisons I could find all had the Pixel producing better photos. On the A54’s side, the battery is probably significantly better and the connectivity is supposedly better, but I am a bit sceptical of this because my mum has an A34 (mid range model below the A54) which frequently drops wifi if the signal strength dips temporarily and refuses to reconnect until the “signal is stronger” despite the signal recovering almost instantly – it turns out there is a setting under ‘Intelligent’ wifi to disable this stupid feature, though.

I am super pleased with the camera. The picture quality in low light is amazing. Here are some examples of the Pixel 7 versus my Pocophone F1 in artificial light. I won’t bother to label which one is which because it’s pretty obvious! And as well as being actually in focus, the photos are smaller (1.7MB vs 5.6MB for the first two, 3.4MB vs 4.8MB for the second).

Portrait mode on the Pixel:

Entertainment

I finished Rings of Power S1. Taking a broad view, it was pretty good and I enjoyed it. But taking a more detailed view there were a lot of plotholes and things that made no sense. These are on a tiny detail level (like why did Galadriel give away her sword before going out on a 10 day ride – you might need it, you know?). I’m pretty sure you could choose any scene and come up with a long list of tiny interactions that don’t make sense. But they are also on a bigger level: Halbrand’s position is really important to the overall plot and his own scheming goals, but he seems to have ended up where he is only because he was very passive and let himself be pushed around by Galadriel. Also, I found it frustrating how much screen time was given to the Harfoots in the last episode and how little was given to the elves and Celebrimbor, which are far more interesting and important to later events. The writing is pretty terrible really, it just looks good and it’s well acted. Galadriel’s pronunciation of ‘Sauron’ and Elrond’s ‘Galadriel’ are highlights.

I’m also watching Andor. I found the first episode a bit slow and the second to be a likely cure for insomnia, but now I’m on epsiode 9 and it’s really, really good! It’s very different to all the other Star Wars media. I think the difference is that it’s written for adults. In other Star Wars, the evilness of the Empire is almost abstract; you never really see the real, personal effects of it. In Andor you see a lot more of the almost casual evil and callousness. The prison design really subverts expectations for prison episodes, and I found it very unsettling. Andor is very well made TV.

In other entertainment news… I seem to have ended up watching some Vietnam war films lately, because I watched one and then there were lots of recommendations…

Full Metal Jacket. This is a strange film because it’s split into three parts and, while they’re connected by following the same character, they feel quite disconnected. The first part, of his experience at boot camp, is unique due to the drill instructor. The second part follows him to Vietnam as he takes on a role of a military reporter, but keeps the war itself at a distance, and the third part has him take part in real battle with all the grim experience that comes with it. That’s the journey of the film. But it feels a little unsatisfying because the main character is never explored very deeply so the fact that he alone is what connects the first to the second two sections feels like there’s something missing. Some of the first section feels quite surreal with odd dialog and deliveries and stylistic choices, and some of the weird dialog and deliveries continue throughout. I wondered if this signified anything. After reading about it online, I think if there’s any more to it, then it was lost on everyone but the director. It’s a strange film.

The Deer Hunter is another strange film, but in a completely different way. It’s a long film (3h) with the first hour moving at a glacial pace. Most of the scenes feel far too long, and it also feels like there’s a lot missing in between scenes. There is an interesting story about maturity and trauma in here somewhere, but it’s very unfocused. It’s mostly carried by Robert De Niro. I wouldn’t recommend it, unless you really like both weddings and Russian roulette.

Platoon. Unlike the other films, Platoon is a straightforward war film. It feels like a modern film. In some ways, the details are strong. The combat scenes are disorientating and confusing and (except at the end) you rarely even see the enemy other than the odd flash of a silhouette, which I’d imagine is pretty on point for jungle warfare. The costumes are also really strong, with how the characters often look drenched in sweat and rain and the clothes stick to them. They look like they’re really living in a dense, humid jungle. It’s well made with convincing details. But on the negative side, the story is a bit weak. It’s not bad, there’s just not a lot to it.